Two weeks. Two weeks since he took me on that date. A deep breath escaped my lips as I nervously crossed my arms. I was beyond terrified of what will happen today, what if I make a fool of myself?
Everyone will laugh at me.
I stepped into the training room, that was similar to a gymnastics building- padded flooring and mirrors all over a wall. Only a few people had showed up, since it’s five in the morning. Others had training in the afternoon, which luckily made me feel better.
As Josh had promised, he got me into training. He put me in the same schedule as him to keep track of me. He’s never let me leave his sight, and when he’s gone Rena takes care of me. I honestly feel like I’m five when he says that.
Yes, Josh and I have gotten closer, to the point where he can kiss my forehead before I fall asleep, and a make out session here or there, but other than that nothing.
I was wearing a pair of Nike pros and a regular grey sports bra, luckily most of the other girls were dressed like that too. I didn’t want to be all sweaty in hot clothing, Rena had warned me about that.
A few men were wrestling in the corner, being complete jack asses. I crossed my arms over my chest and watched them. A couple of girls were gossiping, but I really didn’t bother to listen in. Drama isn’t my thing, and I’m not in school anymore.
I pulled my long blond hair into a ponytail, and sighed. I wasn’t exactly friends with anyone here and I’m not very social. I’ve seen them around before but have never actually made a friendly bond with them.
“‘Morning,” a groggy voice cooed in my ear, and arms snaked around my waist. I didn’t have to see who it was, and I instantly relaxed. He pressed a small kiss on my bare shoulder and sucked in a deep breath.
“finally awake?” I smirked, playing with his thumbs. I shifted my weight silently. He is quite a heavy sleeper, and takes awhile to get around. I beat him down here before he was even awake. He simply nodded his head against my neck and mumbled something.
“You know, I do like the outfit, but I don’t like you wearing it in front of everyone. I ought to go make you change.” I frowned, I really didn’t want to change. What’s wrong with my outfit? I’m training, girls in gyms wear this kind of stuff all the time. He’s too over protective, he even hates when I talk to Chris.
“But, I won’t. So, don’t roll your eyes at me, love.” He broke away from my grasp and scanned everyone’s faces. I’m pretty sure a few people were missing but I don’t know. I’ve never done this before.
“Alright, grab a equal ranking partner and spar. Do not go easy, on them.” Josh boomed. I cringed at how loud his voice was and he chuckled softly after apologizing.
Several men and women paired up, and began swinging. I opened my mouth to ask what I was to do, and Josh stopped me. “Were just going to watch for a minute, then I’ll show you a thing or two, okay?” I nodded, but instead of really watching I was distracted by how dominant Josh could be, and how good it sounded on him, not to mention his hands on my hips.
“Janet…” He laughed lightly, before flicking me in the back of the head. I turned to Josh and scowled. “I asked you if your ready?” He laughed, and I simply nodded. Ready as I’ll ever be I guess.
I’ve done a little bit of training, I just needed to build my strength up again. Focus.
Josh and I stood opposite of each other, standing in a fighting position. “Don’t go easy on me.” I mumbled, and Josh nodded.
We circled each other for minutes, waiting for one of us to make the first move. Josh lunged forward towards my legs knocking me to the ground. He turned back around and went to pin me but I kicked him off and rolled ontop of him.
He huffed, and threw me off with little effort before lunging back at me. Throwing a punch into his stomach, he wasn’t effected. Josh threw a punch towards my body and I caught it twisting his wrist to where his back was to me and tackled him to the ground.
My knee pressed into the middle of his back and I frowned. I know I was hurting his wrist, it looked completely painful.
“I told you not to go easy on me. I came from a warrior family.” My face was inches from his ear, and he growled. It took a moment for him to reveal his neck, showing submission. Finally I released my grip and helped him up.
“Fine, I won’t go easy on you this time.”
After about an hour of training, Josh was hunched over clutching his crotch. I apologized again and again for hitting him so hard, I really didn’t mean to. I had to swallow my laughter because he was my mate and I think I might have actually hurt him.
His beta had come over to help, but I growled. No one is coming near my mate; he’s hurt. “Better listen to her, she isn’t playing any games.” Josh said, not even meeting his eyes. He was concentrating on the ground. After awhile he finally stood to his feet and ran his fingers through his hair.
“Man, Janet. You know I do need that part of my body.” I wasn’t sure if he was mad or not, but I was training. If he wasn’t going easy than neither was I, but I felt like a complete buffoon. I don’t know if he was talking about his junk, or if he was going on the borders of using it for peeing. Either way it was awkward.
“Kyle, as much as I hate you, your going to have to take over for today.” I spoke, trying to keep my calm. Since the day I’ve woken up here he has been a pain in the ass. Always laughing at me, and being very rude when Josh isn’t around. Kyle glared at me before turning and announcing to everyone training to take a quick water breath.
I walked Josh out and into the living room, and gave him a quick reassuring glance before walking back into the kitchen. Throwing around frozen items I grabbed a pint of chocolate ice cream. Somehow I managed to grab that, two spoons, and two cans of soda. After a minute of balancing the things I found my way back to where Josh was.
I gazed at Josh’s sweaty body, and studied his breathing. His red sweatpants clung to his body, and one hand was resting on his crotch. God I felt bad. He sucked in a breath and had his eyes closed.
Sitting the items down on the coffee table, I took the remote and picked a movie of Netflix. I lightly sat the ice cream where I had hit Josh, and he sucked in a deep breath. Dropping the spoons into the tub I covered myself up with the blanket and curled next to him.
We sat there and ate it in silence for awhile, before I finally spoke. “Does it still hurt? I’m really sorry, I-” he turned to me and kissed my lips lightly, shaking his head.
“It’s better now, I didn’t know you were such a fighter.” I scanned his face then rolled my eyes. He always has something like that to say, but he’s never actually said anything that brought back memories.
“Totally.” I mumbled, taking another bite of ice cream to drowned out the awkwardness. A small smile crept onto his face, “you owe me, ya know.” I furrowed my eyebrows at him and sunk back into his shoulder. This movie was an absolute bore.
“I’m glad I hit you.” I mumbled, and Josh didn’t hesitated to ask why. “Because we got an excuse to get out of there.” I glanced down at the half empty ice cream and laughed.
“Gotta deal with it.” He shrugged. Throwing an arm around my shoulders, his fingers traced the strap of my sports bra.
“We could always go to the room and say that you need to lie down.” I said licking the spoon and balancing it on his nose. He chuckled softly.
“Your worse than I thought.” He smiled, and shifted lightly. He put the now empty pint on the table and stood to his feet. I gave him a dumbfounded look and he in turn rolled his eyes. We walked up the stairs with me constantly asking if he was alright.
The bedroom was the same as it was, but the bed is actually made. The lamp on the bedside table buzzed, and I flipped it off. It’s not even daylight out yet and we’ve already eaten ice cream. I feel fat compared to what I was when I came here, my hip bones seem to still show though.
My skin had darkened to a tan color since it is summer. I let my hair fall down my back, and silently thought. I flipped on the fan and turned out the light, before climbing into bed completely on top of Josh. I could see him clearly, like it was bright.
I carefully straddled his waist, and pressed my fingers against his chest. His ragged breathing fanned my face as I dipped down and pressed my lips on his. They moved in sync, and Josh’s hands pressed against my bum. “I’m very, very,” I said through kisses “sorry, baby.” I breathed quietly, hoping he wasn’t mad at me. He’s never been mad at me, but I just wanted to make sure.
I trailed my lips down his neck, kissing and sucking on the skin. He groaned, and shifted quietly. I was make him very uncomfortable, considering what I was doing to him. His eyes fluttered, and his hands dug into my skin.
“Janet, if you keep doing what your doing I’ll never fall back to sleep.” He groaned, I continued to suck on the skin of his collar bone. After awhile I pulled away and gave him another soft kiss on the lips. Climbing off him, I shyly sucked on my lip and turned away from him.
“I don’t know what’s gotten into you, Janet.” Josh chuckled, “I like it, but I don’t want to hurt you.”
I uncomfortably laid there. I didn’t know what got into me either. Two things ran through my mind, either if was going to extremes for apologizing or…
A sigh escaped my lips when he pulled my body to his. It set me on fire, he curled around me and copied a sigh. He sucked in a deep breath, and I dreaded what he needed to say.
Instead, he brushed it off and kissed my shoulder lightly before relaxing into a sleep.
I opened my eyes after awhile. There’s no way I would be falling to sleep, and there’s a pain in my abdomen. I curled up hoping it would go away; nothing. He noticed my uneasiness, and pulled me closer. I didn’t bother looking at him.
He took a overly long breath, and released it. A small sigh filled the room, then his tired voice. “I know why your acting so weird, Janet…” He pressed his lips to my forehead and calmed.
“It hurts.” I cringed. This pain came from no where. Why was my stomach hurting so badly. Josh kept his lips on my forehead and continued, “I know it hurts, but it will only last for two days at the most. Please don’t cry.” He said as my eyes swelled with tears. I was completely confused, what was happening to me.
“What is it?” I asked abruptly. Feeling his finger rub up and down my back. He shook his head lightly, “your heat, is nothing to be afraid of. I promise.” He blew on the wetness he had left on my forehead, leaving my body feeling cool. I was burning up, but I didn’t want him to know that.
My lower stomach cramped, and I shifted a foot. I’ve never had this happen to me, should I be ashamed?
I wanted nothing more than to have Josh, all of him, but I couldn’t because the pain was a good heaven. He continued to breath softly, and finally he stood to his feet.
“I’ll be right back” he raised a finger before disappearing down the bright hallway. I reached up and turned the fan on high and laid back against the pillows. Wiping any tears from my face, I was afraid.
I’ve heard about heat before. My mom used to warn me about it. She used to say that I’d crave any male is see or smell, and they would want me, unless I have my mate around. Usually it would last for a week tops, and it only appears when we found our mate.
I looked at the clock and sighed. 2:30 pm. Had we really slept in that long? Funny. My head snapped to the doorway, and Josh stood there with Bananas, a bottle of pain killers, and a tub of ice cream.
He flipped on the television and locked the door behind him. “I don’t think you want any visitors right now.” He stated and I shrugged. He picked a comedy movie, and placed the ice cream on my lower abdomen after prying it open.
“I guess it’s only fair that I put ice cream where it hurts on you, and watch movies.” He dipped a spoon in carefully, and shoved it into my mouth. I gave him a smile.
“Here,” he dropped a painkiller into my spoonful of ice cream, “this will help.” After taking the pill I noticed what I did to Josh hours before. Hickeys covered his collar bone, and part of his neck. They were actually very attractive, but He’s attractive in general. I lightly touched one and he raised an eyebrow. He most likely doesn’t know they’re there.
I tuned back to the movie and sighed. I better get used to the room, because I won’t be allowed out. That’s already a given fact. Slowly, then all at once I fell asleep.
Josh’s POV
I glanced over at Janet, to find her sleeping in a ball. I slowly drug a finger over her cheek and watched her tremble.
Her smell was intoxicating, and unbearable small. I pressed the lid onto the ice cream, and released a sigh. Hopefully this won’t last long, I don’t want her wolf over powering her. She’ll do things she’ll regret, and I don’t want that.
I felt bad for her. I don’t exactly know what she’s going through right now, but I’m sure it hurts. The way she was confused makes me believe this was her first time, since she just found me a few weeks ago.
My wolf was scolding me, that he couldn’t resist her. I can’t either, but I have to. The way the smell is, it’s driving my hormones mad. I let out a stressed sigh and climbed off the bed.
I didn’t want to leave her, but I did. I stepped into the bathroom and shut the door behind me. I leaned against the counter and stared at my reflection. My eyes were too dark.
what if I can’t control myself? What if she gets pregnant, or what if she’s not ready? What if I am not ready?
No, I wouldn’t let things get that far. She won’t be as drawn to me, since I haven’t exactly marked her yet. She hasn’t let me. I climbed into a steaming shower and groaned. I had to release, to calm my hormones. I stayed quiet, to make sure I didn’t wake Janet. I spilled into the water, and leaned pressed my hands against the shower walls.
I didn’t do this often. This wasn’t me. Lately Janet had been driving me crazy, and since she’s been here I’ve dropped everything. I was beyond stressed.
After awhile, I turned the shower off and wrapped a towel around my waist. As quietly as I could, I gathered clothes throughout the room. I attempted to hold my breath, but failed. I quickly threw on some black basketball shorts and turned off the blaring television.
The room was freezing, and I could still see beads of sweat trickling down her forehead. She was curled into a ball, groaning occasionally from the pain. Her hands were under her head, and her lips were parted. I didn’t want to leave the bedroom but I forced myself to, locking the door behind me. I collected the key from the door frame, and walked down a flight of stairs.
Rena and Chris were sitting on the couch. In his hands was my nephew, asleep and sucking on a binky. “Rena, I need you to look after Janet, she’s erm…”
I ran a finger through my hair and sighed. “I won’t be able to control myself, and you’ve gone through it before- so can you help her out and bring her lunch in a little while? I really need to stay away from her.” I tried to put it a subtle as I could, but if was obvious Chris knew what I was talking about.
“I’ll baby sit or anything, please.” She simply nodded, and I handed her the key.
“What ever I say- don’t let me in there, alright?”
“Okay.” Rena smiled, and turned back to chatting with Chris. This was going to be a long week.