I made it WOOHOOO!
This book was a struggle with a capital S-T-R-U-G-G-L-E.
It wasn’t because the book itself was difficult but the circumstances surrounding it. I am about to admit my biggest most shameful secret that I tried to keep under the covers. It actually isn’t that bad, it was just that I was super embarrassed about it. Well, I just graduated high school in June. It took me six years to graduate. I was home schooled overseas and my family had no idea what they were doing. I had no idea what I was doing and I had no support.
Every time someone would ask me, “Oh what’s your major? Or what are you?” I would always say pre med because I always thought I wanted to go to med school and I wasn’t there yet. So technically I was “pre” med. It was deceitful I know but I was so embarrassed. The other thing is I decided not to become a doctor after I passed out seeing someone else get an IV. I also passed out when I heard someone talking about getting an IUD in detail. Like the whole damn procedure. I decided just to be a pediatric therapist.
So, I finished everything and now I’ll be attending community college. I signed up and everything. That was one thing.
My mom had major surgery. I had to take care of her and my siblings. I had to hold down the house. This was stressful. We had to get help around the house and I just felt so helpless. I am the one that takes care of my family, you know? I like to be the one who gives and not the one that receives so this was really difficult.
The last thing is that my dad’s best friend died. I found myself grieving even though I never met him. My dad used to talk about him all the time. He had seven kids and was a writer like me.
I read his work and he even talked to a publisher. Obviously writing a book like this, I had feelings. I was mad at first. I was like how can this great guy die? Then, I realized that he is in a better place and, due to little signs, I think he’s more than happy where he is. When I write my first traditional book, I’ll dedicate it to him.
I just wanted to thank all of you. I made a lil’ list as usual.
cherxxbear
starburst_rain
MrBrandFlake
CreamyInside
CheeseZees
friskriel
phoenixesandlumity
Soya82p
nathkapoor07
taelorZa
watermelonsugarpie
_histranger
LeanneWood7
Thank you for giving the strength to finish this book. Your votes, your comments really uplifted me at my darkest points.
Now, I love everyone who reads this book. I love each and every one of you. Every silent reader, every vocal reader, anyone who clicks on here. I love you.
Writing is one of those things that keep me happy. I know it might come as a shock because I’m fabulous, but I really don’t have friends. I never talked to a boy, or girl, romantically. So in a sense, these stories are all I have. When I read some of you say that my writing helps you and that it makes you feel less alone, thank you for letting me do that for you.
I love to write for you and I’m never going to stop 🙂
Words: About 56,000
Pages: 156
(I’m writing novels baby)
Up next is a New Story Alert: BWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAA!
It’s evil.
And because i’m evil, I’ll give it to you tomorrow. I changed my mind. I want you to suffer.